How much pride is too much? How much is too little? Most importantly, how much pride is enough?

And it's funny. I think I finally feel secure in myself. I'll be okay. I'm protected, I'm safe.


The idea that you can't follow in someone's steps because they're immediately washed from time is so...


I've been waking up at 8AM for a bit over a week now. It's January 24th, about 11PM. I've found that if I sleep at around midnight, I can comfortably hit 8AM. For so many years I stayed up all night until 4-6AM and it's taken me so long to fix it. The solution was so simple. I didn't have anything to wake up for so I wouldn't bother sleeping at a reasonable time. I was thinking about how people who own dogs take them out every morning. Why? Because they have to.Their reason for consistent sleep. I don't have a dog, but I figured I could just pretend like I did. Instead of going on some short walk with a dog, I tell myself I have to run around my block. It's like a half mile, it's nothing, but having this to wake up for keeps my sleep consistent. I can't finish my run before 9 if I don't sleep at or before midnight, so I have to sleep early. That's all the convincing my brain needs to get my body into bed. And I've been feeling so much better.